Forever's No Time At All, by Daria; same disclaimer: I feel a sickness in the pit of my stomach the like of which I have not felt since the days I slept in the filthy, rat infested alleyways of Calcutta and lived on whatever discarded crusts of nan I was able to find. On so many days back then, my mornings began with a prayer to the gods to find it in their plans for me to remove me from my plight, to help me find a life away from those squalid streets, from the indignity of begging for subsistence when my magic feats brought little change from the pockets of the tourists, from my sore bare feet, from the beatings I suffered at the hands of men who made a living by stealing from those weaker than themselves, and from the constant grinding pangs of hunger in my belly. In answer to my prayers, Dr. Quest rewarded me for being his angel of mercy at the time he needed one most by adopting me and removing me from my horrid existence. It never occurred to me in the four years since that I would ever be expected to repatriate to India, for I had become as American as my family, at least I believed myself to be. I have not considered my cultural difference to be an obstacle to my Americanization, and the Quests have never treated me as an outsider, while Dr. Quest has always taken great pains to reinforce my pride in my culture. From the moment Dr. Quest had it fixed in his mind that I would be his adopted son, he has cared for me and loved me as a real father should, even when it meant he had to openly fight those who opposed his wishes: the magistrate in Calcutta who begrudgingly granted my adoption after several hearings and needless delays, the customs officials who questioned my papers, the Intelligence One agents who were suspicious of me and the bigoted comments of people who pointed at me and stared at me as we traveled. There were hotel reservations in places in America and Africa which were "canceled" upon our arrival at the sight of me, and times when Dr. Quest bit back hard on his anger and simply changed his plans rather than cause me embarrassment. And now his parental authority is being challenged by someone who is an outsider to our family, only this time the onslaught comes from one with the ultimate authority over my being: my biological parent. And for my part, I have just insulted the person who will forever be my link to the lives of my grand and illustrious ancestors, the previous rulers of Bangalore who have managed to hold on to this Princely State since the early 1800's, following the carnage of the wars between the British and the Moslem from the lines of Moghul sultans. My mother carries with her the proud heritage of her Asiatic people, for she is not a native of Bangalore. She is the daughter of royalty from yet another region of India, betrothed to my father, the much older Haresh, when she was a small girl. As was arranged in her childhood, she married my father soon after her seventeenth birthday, and in quick order she found herself to be with child and had to begin to plan for the arrival of the heir to the throne. Still but a child herself, she took care of her infant son and her ailing husband, putting aside any feelings of unhappiness or longing for her life to follow a different path. She did as her parents told her to do; she followed their rules and their designs for her life. And now she expects that her son will do the same, and I have cut her deeply with my outburst. "Please, Mother; I need time to think!" I plead with her, though I can tell she is not ready to hear more of this. "I...I...do not want you to think me ungrateful. I am more happy than I have ever been to have found you, to know that you are alive and well and that you care for me, but...I have been very happy in my life in America. Never did I dream that I had a family, a parent who loved me, a home...here in India. I am just not prepared to make such a decision. Please..." "There is no decision to be made, Behkhadji. I am your mother, and you will do as you are told. You have nothing to say about it." Her tone is not so much harsh or angry as it is final, as that of a parent who has unquestioned control and no need of anger would address a child who is normally obedient. And she is calling me by my whole name, another long-established parental marker. I fear they must include this in a parenting manual secretly transmitted amongst themselves, for I have often heard Dr. Quest resort to cries of "Jonathan Douglas Quest" when my brother has been errant in his ways. "And have I anything to say about it, your highness?" asks Dr. Quest, who, while trying to maintain a measured, reasonable tone has, at the same time, reached up to take my shaking left hand in his, squeezing it gently to transmit his silent message of courage and comfort. "You see, legally, I am his parent, too, and I have been for four years. I know that's probably null and void by Indian law now, but you must see the trauma and strain that so many revelations in such a short period of time have put on the boy. Hadji deserves a period of adjustment, and I'll promise you my full cooperation if you'll at least allow him to vent his feelings about where he wants to live and how he views his future. It seems only fair..." "Fair, is it, Dr. Quest?!" my mother starts in, for he has raised an issue for which she will not sit quietly. "Do you believe it is fair for an outsider to make decisions for another person's child? How would you feel if I made decisions for your Jonny, there? Do you think it was fair that I was deprived the right to nurture my son, to watch him blossom and grow for twelve years while this... merchant... dragged him from city to city, depositing him in horrible places and abandoning him in that filthy cesspool of Calcutta?" Even Pasha's feelings can be hurt, though I've never seen the effects last for very long. He takes offense to my mother's comments, saying, "Hey, wait a minute, your highness! I didn't abandon him; he was canvassing for me! I awarded him that whole sector of Calcutta as his sales area and made him a district manager representing The Pasha Peddler, Incorporated (all rights reserved; I got a poorman's copyright on the name, kid)!" He says the last part sotto voce, then continues by gesturing in my mother's direction. "Besides, when the kid said he didn't want to go to Agra, I honored his wishes---not like the way you're tryin' to railroad him now! And as for the rest of that, I COULD charge you babysitting services for all that time, since what I was doin' was protecting him from those nasty relatives of yours with the big knives, so don't be talkin' about me draggin' him around...errr....ma'am." As if he were not in it deep enough, he turns to me to add, "Hey kid, add up my fee: ten rupees an hour multiplied by twenty four hours, times about seven years, give or take two or three, there, and add compound interest of twelve percent annually!" Dr. Quest shoots a disapproving look at Jonny who is cheering Pasha on, then his face drops into his hands as he tries desperately not to laugh, and even my mother's facial expression has changed from one of astonishment to a bemused smirk. "Quiet, you silly man, or I shall order the guards to introduce you to the concept of hard labor. And if you dare charge me for babysitting I shall have you charged with kidnapping and false imprisonment." Pasha opens his mouth but thinks better of challenging her. Instead he looks at me incredulously. "You didn't tell her about us being held in the stockades in Kashmir and the caning and all, did you, kid? Man, you and I gotta have a serious talk!" (continued)